Hi, I’m Cat Grant, author of m/m and m/m/f erotica. Welcome to my first blog post here at Passionate Reads. I’m so excited!
I’ve chatted previously on Twitter with some of my fellow author-bloggers, as well as our fabbo editor, Grace Bradley. One of our fave topics is the CW show The Vampire Diaries, and how much we all love that angsty bad boy, Damon Salvatore. Amazing how he can be so effing hot, even when he’s threatening to break the heroine’s arm! But we faithful viewers know it’s all just an act. There’s this awful pain eating away at Damon’s soul that he can only endure by doing bad, bad things because he thinks he deserves to be hated. Makes me want to hug him—right before my panties go up in flames!
I’ve always had a thing for anti-heroes. My two favorite actors of all time are Humphrey Bogart and Robert Mitchum, and they both excelled at playing anti-heroes. Rick Blaine in Casablanca’s motto is, “I stick my neck out for nobody.” Mitchum’s greatest character, detective Jeff Bailey in Out of the Past, not only falls for the movie’s bad girl, but when she tells him she’s bad, he replies, “Baby, I don’t care.” Not exactly what a white knight would say, in either instance! Both characters are redeemed by the love of a good woman before the end, but up until then, it’s touch and go—and I love it! It’s fun watching these characters struggle with right and wrong, and end up doing right in spite of themselves.
Yes, I know. I’m weird. But of the three great conflicts in fiction—man against man, man against nature, man against himself—it’s the third I find most fascinating. It feels like more of a triumph when the hero has to battle his past and his conflicting emotions (usually including a nice, big dose of fear and/or self-doubt) to win free and earn that happy ending.
I like to close a book (or finish a movie) thinking, “Conquered his demons? Check. Shown his vulnerability? Check. Accepted love? Double-check. Okay, I’m satisfied.”
Talk about a loaded word! But by now you know what I mean.
Cat Grant’s been scribbling stories since she was knee-high to a bug. She lives by the sea in beautiful Monterey, California with one persnickety feline and entirely too many books and DVDs. She’s published by Amber Quill Press and Ellora’s Cave.